Fairytale Ending

Sometimes I wish my life was like a movie or a book, a happy one. But it's not. You're not gonna show up at my door with roses and tell me that you love me. We're not gonna get in a fight in the pouring rain when suddenly you stop and just kiss me, then give me that look that lets me know we'll be together always. I don't get to run to you and jump in your arms and have you make everything okay. Because we're not okay. We will never be okay, despite my most desperate hopes and dreams. Because you don't love me... And you never will. Not the way I love you. So maybe my life isn't like a book or a movie, not now. And that's really hard for me. But I believe that God has a plan for me, which makes my life a greater story than any movie ever produced and every book ever written; even if I can't see it yet. I'm not okay, not today. But with God's help someday I will be better than okay. He will give me my perfect happy ending. But you can't have your ending when you're still at the very beginning.