Bliss

Cry me a river from those beautiful eyes. Let me dive in the broken waves and swim in the insanity of your brain. I'll sink to the bottom, but don't you dare jump in and try to save me. It's far too late for heroes. This is where I need to be. Here forever will I lie, lost in the dark depths of your mind. Just let me drown. Peacefully I'll fade, fade myself away.

Dark is the Way

It's creeping into every little crack and tiny crevice,
And seeping into all my holes and gaping wounds.
It finds it's way to all the scars left unsown and fills them with the poison.
As it spreads throughout my body,
the blackness covers me and takes ahold.
Everything around has become bitter and frozen.
Icicles surround my broken heart.
The venom consumes my soul and pours out my mouth uncontrollably.
This darkness that has become me is not who I want to be; who I am.
"This isn't me!" I scream,
But my cries are buried inside for nobody to hear.
It's suffocating me and as it pulls me deeper under, drowning me,
I begin to wonder...

Who can save you when no one knows you're dying?

Farewell

I can't handle this. I can't do it. Please don't leave me... Who will I turn to when you're gone? I need you. But I know it's wrong. Farewell my friend, don't be gone too long.

Fairytale Ending

Sometimes I wish my life was like a movie or a book, a happy one. But it's not. You're not gonna show up at my door with roses and tell me that you love me. We're not gonna get in a fight in the pouring rain when suddenly you stop and just kiss me, then give me that look that lets me know we'll be together always. I don't get to run to you and jump in your arms and have you make everything okay. Because we're not okay. We will never be okay, despite my most desperate hopes and dreams. Because you don't love me... And you never will. Not the way I love you. So maybe my life isn't like a book or a movie, not now. And that's really hard for me. But I believe that God has a plan for me, which makes my life a greater story than any movie ever produced and every book ever written; even if I can't see it yet. I'm not okay, not today. But with God's help someday I will be better than okay. He will give me my perfect happy ending. But you can't have your ending when you're still at the very beginning.